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TIQ.
I don't describe myself.

Thursday, January 29, 2009
grumpy grumpy nenek.

ANGRY ANGRY ANGRY ANGRY.
IRRITATED IRRITATED IRRITATED.

I get so cranky easily. And I am too too dependant on the people around me. But that is just me. And when I'm going through this rough time with f* FYP. No one's literally beside me. Everyone is trying to cater to me as much as they can but it just doesn't satisfy me. But come to think of it,
how much can you expect of other people heh?

Mum slept way before she started accompanying, so much for her words.
Dad slept soonafter.
He slept soonafter that too.


Guess who was my filial teman then?
Misteri Jam 12, Preserved water apples and
GAZZELLIONS of coffee in my stolen venti Starbucks cup.


I wished I was Miss Independant.
And I seriously can't function at home.


Wednesday, January 28, 2009
Insomnia

Was looking through all the old pictures and I found one with the Seoul Garden mates,
dated...errrm..like 3 years ago?
With Ora,the mat indon, Gopi, the mamak, and Rash, the cornrows dude.
and me, with that short hair.
EWW.

Tuesday, January 27, 2009
dead disco.



Somehow, someway, i got cheated by so many people. Hohohohoh. But yeah, it's for a good outcome. So, Alhamdulillah. Went for a buffet at taka with dearest aunty, and i tell you, my oh my, i can really really eat.serious lor.tak rugi beb. dinner was at Adam Road, and the mutton chop, Yummylicious lah okayyyyy! And yar, got to spent with dearest adik sedaras. It made me happy.


Long-time-no-see Abang Izzatku came over for a visit. And yeah, he knows his adik sedara kesayangan was having a messed up period. And there he is, all the way from somewhere, dropped down just to have a decent conversation with me. I love you lah okay! Tahu tak. Hohoho.


He came over to nenek's house to spend time with me and family. And he came over to my crib yesterday to help me with my spring cleaning and babysitting. And he, for the first time, learned to cook. Sebok sebok lah. Aku nak masak untuk budak-budak. Dia sebok potong-potong cili lah carrot lah. Hohoho. But he was happy. I guess. So it was me, him, and 9 kids. While the parents are out to kenduri. KECOH habis.



Now, "break" is finally over. And im already thinking of my FYP. So many things to do. I don't even know where to start. And like the picture have proven, me and Naddy, and overnights and Macs. Can drive us crazy. :) But i still love her. The one and only, who is always there.



you don't realise what you have lost, until you've lost it.
Red cliff and Ong Bak.
Knee massager.
And the pinapple tarts label-er lover.
Etched,in mind.
How could I be so heartless?


Friday, January 23, 2009
disease.

you were like my lover, and my bestfriend,
all wrapped into one with a ribbon on it.
i never gave myself to another the way i gave it to you.
don't even recognise the way you hurt me do you?
and you're the reason why i'm thinking.

Tuesday, January 20, 2009
mata steam.

Long walks under the scorching hot sun.
Long bus rides.
Fish and chips.
Droopy eyes.
That sweet sweet smile.
Just like a drug.
presentation in an hour.
and im going to talk cock.

REMIX

Submission is done.
and i am happy with my 3D.
But my CAD.
BUCK UP BUCK UP!
kay, going to school.

Sunday, January 18, 2009
E-F-F O-F-F.

Everybody just leave me alone.
LEAVE ME ALONEEEEEE.

Sunday, January 11, 2009
you set my soul alight.


I feel like going naked and squeezing myself in my washing machine and let it run full and let it wash and soap me till I'm clean. Let it toss and turn me and wash away all the memories I have embedded in me. I feel like I want to forget everything that has happened. Forget everyone and move on and be happy alone. I feel like i need to do everything, everything I wasn't able to do the last time. Like, for once, go to a rock concert. Or start dancing again. Like for once, i want to do something crazy. Like, lighting up a ciggie and just smoke for one whole day without getting addicted. Like just not caring for a while. Im so so so so so so messed up. And I started it. But on another side, I am loving it.


But I guess, Im so used to caring.



you, don't rush.
you, i don't know.

PROJECTS. FYP.OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG!!!!
I HAVE ONE WEEK LEFT.
TILL SUBMISSION.
OMGOMGOMOMG!

Meeting Fahmi tommorrow.
I need my cousin. now.

Thursday, January 8, 2009
Blubber

im a shithead.
who in this world doesn't even know what she wants.
me,of course.
surprise,much?

Tricky thoughts.

how did we get here.
i used to know you so well.

im starting to feel this haywire-ness.
and i can't describe.
its just im so used to be with.
that when suddenly im not.
its a little overwhelming.
and im missing everything.
but being me.
im just keeping quiet about this.

Wednesday, January 7, 2009
I-don't-care day.





The deejay on 98.7fm was speaking about today being a i-don't-care day. It's all about not letting others stepping on your head, and going all out to do what you want.





I think, it was a very good coincidence. :)


Saturday, January 3, 2009
Fluctuate.

I don't understand why parents can be so persistent about getting their child to do something when the child had already made it clear that it won't happen. I said I won't go. So, I won't. I am making my own choices now. If my parents wanted to get angry and decided to stay silent or throw some tantrums around the house, well, obviously, i am so much better in staying silent.

on another note, cycling session with babes was awesome. Bad thing was, I couldn't sleep well the whole night. I woke up a dozen times because my legs were aching from the sudden excercise. It was really bad. And I (along with twinny) am really really sleep-deprived.

to you who matters alot, the old me is dead and gone. Dead and gone.