sometimes illusions aren't so simple.

Sunday, January 14, 2007

Bear with me fellow Bloggers,This will be a long post.
Read it all and feel it.

Within a week,her laughter was fading,she could barely speak,her body was burning with fever.We sat down to watch her die,unable to do anything more than keep cool cloths on her head.She knew she couldn't survive and did not want to be a burden in her last days.She merely looked at us with gratitude and from time to time,smiled.She wasn't crying.I remembered that she looked beautiful on that very bed, with the white flowers Cik Dahlia bought for her.Well she said.."Yah..Belikan mak bunga putih eh.."

It was raining heavily on the 23rd Of November 1997.I was still in primary school.I knew i had to rush.But the rain became an obstacle. It's so heavy it's as if crying along with me.I had this bad feeling inside,i knew it would happen.The hospital lift open and i could see Cik Yati crying like crazy.A loose,blubbery wail came from her lips.I saw Cik Wira twisting a Kleenex between his slim fingers,tearing it into little bits.I knew it.

"Asyhaduallah illaha illallah".

I entered the room and i saw Abang,Fahmi,Fahimah and Shakir kneeling down beside her bed.I joined.And.The tears couldn't stop.Its the end. Nenek's gone.They covered her face with the blanket.I was young.I wanted to snatch the blanket and shout "nenek bangun nenek".But i could just afford to kneel down near her feet,touch,and beg for forgiveness.I didn't even have the chance to say goodbye.Stroke took her away.God took her away.I'm sick of hearing God loves her more than us.But i know it's true.Its damn true.I wanted to crawl into a deep hole.I didn't want to be who i was,I wanted to be someone else.23rd Of November,She went away.

my one and only grandmother
MDM SUMAINAH I miss you many many.

Chirping birds.


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