sometimes illusions aren't so simple.

Monday, July 9, 2007

i am going to make my square pegs fit the round holes.

sometimes i want to wake up to a perfect life.
have you ever thought of that?
i will tell myself each day that whatever happens.
i will smile no matter what.
yeah right.
smile and the world will smile with you.
but someone replied me before.
"smile and the world will smile with you,
cry and the world will laugh at you."
i wish i can deny it.
but it does makes sense.
you tried so hard to impress everybody.
you tried so hard to be the best and satisfy everyone.
when in the end,when everything gets thrown back to you.
all they do is sit and watch.
and you continue to wail.

i have this enthusiasm inside me that i myself can't explain.
i want to have a future.
though now i have a reason to dream about that future.
i have someone to work for that future.
i can't help but to think.
everything has to starts within myself.
i have to learn to love myself as much as people love me.
and i know,alot of you people care.
that i am very grateful for.
and i have to do the best for me.

i am going to make my square pegs fit the round holes.
i am going to be happy.
i am going to be okay.
i am determined about that.

i step into the shower,and let the water wash away all the dirt,
the past and everything that i have been.
my sins,washing away.
this Kafkaesque world i had is going for good.

right now,i feel more like a crayon scribble by a small child.
everything has to start from scratch.
yes atiqah.
InsyaAllah.

and with this, let me thank everyone that have been there for me.
mi,ily.fe alby hawak.Ya aghla habibi. heee.
naddy,you know i can't live without you;my other half.
my lovely bitches. diydiy and mimin; aku sentiasa sayang kamu.
khai and cin. what would happen to me in poly if you girls arent there.
cousins.izzat,you're always there. and of course my other cousins as well.
my SG friends. farid, ama, syam, wak,always remembered.
and also to rizal and syafiq.(:
*stands up on the table and waves*
thankkiu thankkiu.

kay dah. sudah habis dedication ku.

this is another one of those hellogoodbye posts.
because its going to be another busy week.
multiple deadlines and never-ending submissions.

malam readers.

sexliesandradiohead.


TIQ. I don't describe myself. Naddy Diyanah Syafiqah Yasmin Nunun Fahimah Izzat Shakir Khairiah Cindy Syahilla Ayuni Sopiute Nabila Seri Ubaida Syafiq Liya Sue Syiqin Marsya Nurul December 2006 January 2007 February 2007 March 2007 April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 March 2010	Monday, July 9, 2007 i am going to make my square pegs fit the round holes. sometimes i want to wake up to a perfect life. have you ever thought of that? i will tell myself each day that whatever happens. i will smile no matter what. yeah right. smile and the world will smile with you. but someone replied me before. "smile and the world will smile with you, cry and the world will laugh at you." i wish i can deny it. but it does makes sense. you tried so hard to impress everybody. you tried so hard to be the best and satisfy everyone. when in the end,when everything gets thrown back to you. all they do is sit and watch. and you continue to wail. i have this enthusiasm inside me that i myself can't explain. i want to have a future. though now i have a reason to dream about that future. i have someone to work for that future. i can't help but to think. everything has to starts within myself. i have to learn to love myself as much as people love me. and i know,alot of you people care. that i am very grateful for. and i have to do the best for me. i am going to make my square pegs fit the round holes. i am going to be happy. i am going to be okay. i am determined about that. i step into the shower,and let the water wash away all the dirt, the past and everything that i have been. my sins,washing away. this Kafkaesque world i had is going for good. right now,i feel more like a crayon scribble by a small child. everything has to start from scratch. yes atiqah. InsyaAllah. and with this, let me thank everyone that have been there for me. mi,ily.fe alby hawak.Ya aghla habibi. heee. naddy,you know i can't live without you;my other half. my lovely bitches. diydiy and mimin; aku sentiasa sayang kamu. khai and cin. what would happen to me in poly if you girls arent there. cousins.izzat,you're always there. and of course my other cousins as well. my SG friends. farid, ama, syam, wak,always remembered. and also to rizal and syafiq.(: stands up on the table and waves thankkiu thankkiu. kay dah. sudah habis dedication ku. this is another one of those hellogoodbye posts. because its going to be another busy week. multiple deadlines and never-ending submissions. malam readers. sexliesandradiohead. 11:42 PM ·